I don’t deserve this I don’t even deserve this beat. everything I ever wanted everythin God did for me. Even when I had no home, thought I could find me in theese streets. I ain’t gone sit here and lie, like no one had It worst than me. Thought that I had It all, but really I ain’t even know me. 16 made a fam, 25 smiling from cheek to cheek, thought I was doing It right, but ain’t no one was there to teach, what’s the real question, how do you keep yo family? Look in the mirror, man I hate who I fucking see. All this weight I carried, shame was taken up off from me. Things I couldn’t fathom, still come back and be haunting me. Yeah that lustful nature, that was gone be the death of me. Everything my wife put up with tho, I would of been left my ass In the streets. I would of been left my ass In the streets. Let it ride, let it ride, uh Let it ride let it ride uh dad had 3 wives In his lifetime, wouldn’t change mine for a lifeline lemme drown, let me escape my mind. All the answers that I tried to find Yuh yuh put your trust In man and he’ll fail you, I’m a new being since I met my savior Open up they’ll put u in the ground, gettin real real tired wasting time with these clowns uh. Starts with a smile but ends in a frown. Same ol’ shit since Pac had It down. What All the love and the care goes unnoticed been thru the mud, now i gotta deal wit yo shit? Fuck nah Ima worry bout me, spent to many years stressin’ worryin’ bout she uh Gotta find yo place in this cityyy the way u treated me damn damn It’s a pitty Fathers day, christmas day damn It’s a shame, but whatever u say, will not cause me pain Yuh Gotta Shake it off like tay said bigger fish to fry, bigger problems than a base head Shit And I ain’t even jaded Didn’t say shit to your face, meditated put it in a song Wipe my nephews nose stead of lookin for a bong Jaa Talk shit, and you get no reply A man who stands for something can’t live off his own supply. I took my blessings and multiply God please help me fortify, make me the man that I am inside, The man that you want me to be, the dad that my kid need to see, the man my wife need me to be. Demons was all up inside of me, now I see the light, no sean paul, I was set free. To many tragedies I was on call, I got the news yeah my homie gone. get back up, keep ma head up Gotta keep movin my city countin on me.

Late 2015, that I remember, Playin with my son, Ain’t had a job since decemeber, Ain’t had a job since the winter, Felt like a loser, far, far from a winner, God hold me down, down, down, felt like a clown, clown, clown wait wanted get tatted, didn’t know what, I had enough, always was blessed even when down on my luck, hit up the shop, got pop’s initals, yeah my initials, but that’s pop’s initial’s, and his pop’s initial’s, that Is not the issue, but this dude walked In, Lookin hella fly, I saw some something In him, talkin bout some hat where Is my sombrero? Meanwhile I was getting tatted by this girl She fucked my shit up, but at least I met this dog, A month later I got that shit retouched, but fuck it it was like this moment was supposed to happen, he Turned around looked at my shirt, with a grin likes whats happenin miami heat tee, he asked u from miami? I said yuh. U blaze was the second shit he asked? I said yuh but im new in town, say less I got you, So i went and copped a dove, he hooked me up, said we stay In touch I was gone for a while, I didn’t call for a couple months, got back and copped another dove. The 20 I gave him, he copped some brews, one for me and one for you, I was like shit, that was lit, I mean u don’t see that type of shit nowhere, puffin lah just to get by, puffin law just to get high, Time went by a friendship had birthed, was bumpin that dark sky paradise, coppin hella dimes, hella dimes u put me on to that new drizzy drake, Shit it’s too late that was our shit, surprised me cause u only listend to Gucci, at that time all was still gucci, till one day we went to yo crib, u told me some shit, U told me u smoked yo shit tweaked, that you been smoking what you would call geeks, chill bruh u ain’t hooked? Nah fool Is all good, nah fool it ain’t good. time told and u was different, barely smilin always bitter, walkin round always tryna get In to shit, walkin round always mad. I even lived with yo ass, everyday you sippin rum, bruh why tf u skippin lunch? Only stayed a couple days, we was on different paths, quickly got sick of that, Uh dark days all around, happiness not around, you was out makin rounds, Meanwhile I was findin new ways to be makin pounds, we met sometimes It was cool, but there was some distance, I left again, still facin my shit then, got a new job in a whole other town, we stopped talkin for a for a while, my brotha no longer around, but look at me now, dreams getting bigger, my dogs getting slimmer, it wasn’t till my dog Italy sent me that message that got to me, it read “you remember ben? I thought fuck wrong with his head, I’m the reason ya’ll friends, fuck It I said ofcourse, what’s up, bro passed away last night. My heart melted. I was working, had to get to get up tears pouring, I was frozen, I called my wife, couldn’t get no words out bruh on my life she thought I was fired, couldn’t get my mind together, my mind was frying but my brotha home now, my dog In heaven hurt like u have no idea still feeling it now how could of? Or how would of shit went If Ben still around? If I never left. If I would of went round him and talked to his dad, they could of found help man, fuck. But no doubt that you in a better place homie bump this here out In heaven for me, send my love to my pops and my grandma for me, I love you dog you know I can never forget u g , I send my love to his family and I promise bro Ima be big, and trust me bruh I got your kids. I can feel u lookin down on me smiling, I can feel u lookin down on me smiling, no cap I’ma always stay grindin. This one for u brotha, this one for yo. This one for you I love u g, Ben

You know i had to close It on some chill shit This the type of shit, everybody they gone feel it. 3 tracks and that’s It Boy I’m just chillin classics on the way, and they know I got a killin Get rid of that, chip on your shoulder shit Let’s make some millions, and start owning shit I ain’t nothing like you I do It for different reasons I’m built different, you can go and thank Jesus but Souza can’t leave till I hit them with the realness. I pray that Ethereal reach a billion, lives Sick of seein young souls dying Sick of seein old folks crying people lyin people plottin on they own for a piece of devils pie watch them stand In line D’Angelo Is me, that means you & I The devil ain’t shit And you can’t believe no lies I Kept thinkin, I wasn’t gone live Baby I was petrified But I will survive, yuh yuh, I will survive Hit em with the vibes Hit with the disco revival Aplete hit me with some beats on some Quincy & Michael Bish I’ll never go psycho So Please don’t treat me like an Idol Peruvian, american idol This shit gone get hella groovy ain’t you see the title? So much shit got me stressing no ones perfect, just progressing The mind can be a scay place Think easier, think progressive. Yuh Got so much to say, but not enough time I guess I’ll hit em with a vibe. I guess I’ll hit em with a vibe. I guess I’ll hit em with a vibe. Yuh Got so much to say, but not enough time I guess I’ll hit em with a vibe. I’ll just hit em with a vibe. I’ll just hit em with a vibe. Yeah my sista she addicted. Addicted to money, fast life got her going ignit. Pray about it Everything I is made me everything I was, thank God that I made it this far, realize I’m the same age as Pac and I ain’t done shit but write, rap and talk, This time I gone show them what’s up, I gotta take em for walk Before the beginning I hold close to my heart but you know It’s was only the start, mix ain’t on point, equipment yuh, its played out, but the boy ain’t even started yet, so pay now we gone neva fade out, we gone neva fade out, we gone ride till we on brotha who playin now? Track one said how do yo keep yo family? When really, who needed the answer was me I need therapy yuh, I need therapy I need hella peace yuh I need hella peace I need therapy yuh, I need therapy I need hella peace yuh I need hella peace who knew so much can change While I was workin on this EP but that’s between you, you & me now up is all I see, time to work on me dark days had me feelin like Rue on her worst days, now we goin out every thursday, just to clear my mind, things was gettin outta line, Now I’m just tryna unwind Friday nights we used to sip wine and vibe, But now I gotta ride brotha gotta get mines, gotta fix my mind, lately it’s been starting to decline anxieties becoming more and more apparent, Gotta stay on my grind I would say I’m doin better, but boy stop lyin’ I stopped putting blame on other people, gotta face mines, could of been a better man I just needed mo time, Could of been a better father Now, That’s my main line yuh Got so much to say, but not enough time I guess I’ll hit em with a vibe. I guess I’ll hit em with a vibe. I guess I’ll hit em with a vibe. Yuh Got so much to say, but not enough time I guess I’ll hit em with a vibe. I’ll just hit em with a vibe. I’ll just hit em with a vibe. I ll just hit em with a vibe Gotta get mines So i guess this goodbye